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Deconversion (2020 Remaster)

by Steph Moon

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1.
Conversion 01:38
it's been a long night, and the sun will say it's over soon i'm out of energy ideas & time & sleep i've checked myself and also wrecked it subsequently a nap perhaps ten minutes wouldn't hurt goodnight, my love
2.
Souls in Tow 02:17
let all the cannons fire let all the demons conspire i'm finally going home home to the fuck-it-all kids catastrophic catholics and a town full of now-i-knows smile for your children and give them the best, teach them to drive and to drink & undress, and as they get older they'll bear on their shoulders the weight of all of their souls in tow sitting in the throes of the game that goes by the name of "what did i use to be" while panting a lullaby to this melancholy i can only describe in simile just as your children grow spoiled and fat, just as the train is derailed by the gnat, now wipe all the stick off 'cause i'm getting sick of the stink of all of my souls in tow let all the cannons fire let all the demons conspire you're finally going home home to a table for five where you're well & alive and loved by your chromosomes and if you think you spill your blood on the floor, put on a bandaid and love them some more, now wipe all your tears off 'cause i'm taking care of the weight of all of my souls in tow
3.
Looking For 02:29
get off the job now you can let it out oh let that hatred out flip off your boss, oh yeah let that bitch know beyond the shadow of a doubt the hands and feet the ears and eyes but we add, divide, and multiply you're giving me the best but i want more are you the one i'm looking for? you made a mess you've got to clean it up let him help you clean it up just send your request to the right address none of that intervening stuff the hands and feet the ears and eyes but we add, divide, and multiply you're giving me the best but i want more
4.
we don't have to part tonight no, that's alright don't matter how near from here my room is we could just chit and chat, let hours pass we could get comfortable like real friends but i like you far too much this might be dangerous please don't look, please don't touch me oh sweet endangered soul you are so beautiful don't let me make this ugly i'm sure that we'll joke about how it turned out we'll laugh over breakfast in the morning but meanwhile we could fit together well... so well i won't let myself even face you 'cause i like you far too much this might be dangerous please don't look, please don't touch me oh sweet endangered soul you are so beautiful don't let me make this ugly don't let me get ahead of myself don't let me get a head at all hello accuser. hello again. must i answer when you call... i'll wait 'til you're asleep maybe i'll sleep or maybe just watch the glow on the windows you're lucky that you don't know this to and fro... you don't know just how much you put up with i like you far too much this might be dangerous please don't look, please don't touch me oh sweet endangered soul you are so beautiful don't let me make this ugly
5.
Little Dad 04:02
big dad likes it when i sing for him little dad not so much he'd prefer that i sing to a girl and he whistles out of tune big dad wants me to run and play little dad does as well but little dad's play is a little bit unusual little dad's got his pickup truck that he drives to work each day he runs the family business and he'll want me to run it too big dad's already got me a job got me working in advertisement and sometimes it gets dangerous but it's the very best job i've known i know i love my little dad and i know he loves me back big dad's love for my little dad's less mutual do what you can and make the best escape plan you'll work it all out son. love what you do and know i'll be beside you your dad, the only one.
6.
Decon 01:22
two ghosts from the light of my head. one's awake and the other's in bed. two ghosts from the light of my head. one's awake and the other's in bed.
7.
Lakeview 03:28
i should have never doubted you- is that what you want me to say? that my problem's not the problem? that the problem is the world today? and my friends & professors, they just don't know? i should have never gone to lakeview- is that what you want me to say? that chicago was a monster? that there's evil in LA? and i promise that i'll never let you down? so my friends & professors all want me dead? i guess i should have listened to you.
8.
Sons 03:38
something's got to give eventually someone's got to break away this statue looks more like an effigy to these people every day i say... someone told me what the score was us and them, the famous war i think even that's a sugarcoat how many soldiers know their place? and know what they are fighting for? we need heroes- be one. no division, let them see one. let's fight fire with water if we're who we say we are, the sons and daughters.
9.
Version 00:46
in other news, it feels real good to be on the other side of 6 AM, though i'm too tired to think a thing funny to take the subway uptown on a sunday i guess it's always scary doing firsts good morning, babe
10.
i'm no barber somebody cuts my hair for me, mostly dominicans ever seem to do it properly. it's the little things i'm no angel somebody takes a pill for me and that's not my problem... i wish that i could say that earnestly 'cause it's the little things and when i sleep i'm everyone you ever wanted me to be and sometimes i wake smiling. i wasn't always this tall and people used to put my clothes on me and make me waffles and make sure i had my shoes tied correctly it's the little things i'm no christian. probably people saying prayers for me and that's all fine... my heart will catch up with my mind eventually but it's the little things. and when i sleep i'm everyone you ever wanted me to be and sometimes i wake smiling. and even if my name became some kind of family taboo just know i'd love you just as much, and i hope you could say the same. it's the little things.

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Here Lies Steph
1993-2010-2013

My debut solo release, originally released under the moniker Stephan Baer, is a mood journal of a transitional time in my young adult life. the original idea for the project was 5 songs written during my time as a spiritual Christian, followed by 5 songs written after i left that faith & way of life behind. the result was more non-linear: a time capsule of thoughts and feelings from a period of inner change. -Steph, 2020

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released December 23, 2014

Music & lyrics by Steph Ferreira
Produced by Steph Moon
Recorded, mixed, & mastered by Steph Moon
Artwork by Henry Fernau www.instagram.com/henryfernau_art/

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musician, producer, PRPL PPL co-founder. she/her & ey/eir pronouns.
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